LOVE & OTHER DISASTERS

i am sure who ever would 'ever' read my blog wonder y i am writing short stories other that something about myself.. my stories say a lot about me and i love fiction.

someone once told me A great writer is that one disgust looser having guts to get naked with his thoughts, his dreams and last but definitely not the least his logic! (do check out AUTHORS NOTE)

(partial fiction)

" LOVE & OTHER DISASTERS!"

                 They say – a person tends 2 express himself in an unique way only when he has no one to confide his problems too or he's not willing to confide his problems to anyone!!

               But as expected thing had 2 b weird and twisted when it comes to me!! HEY I was willing to share; I'd loads of people around me! But my willingness to share had completely bored and even annoyed the people around me!

So here I am with lappy in my taw EXPRESSING out the story to entertain few souls. Or piss some. What the heck!!As if I ever cared!!...

                                           A bit of blabbering!

           No matter how many time is I was told to shut up, to move on, to accept, to see through, to use my brains. I was just not able to do any of it. its always easy to say rite it was not their arse on fire!!!  I'd end up curling in sofa hugging myself and crying my eyes out – I know this would come out as shock 4 people who know me.. ummm you'll find out Y?..

                                     Yea it was hard to move on after s sort of break up!

                                            Eye on me!

             I was the most confused and furious person during high school, stubborn as mule (still am), angry girl (not now), claiming to know everything about the world ( kinda i-know-what-am-doing), dominating,irritating, and I was gr8 in acting as if I believe, have confidence, faith and all the other shit in myself... honestly I was and am not at all sure abut was I am!!..

                        I was not listed in girls wit girlie habits.. I could be mean and utterly bitchy to people I hate. Quite a feminine trait..

                                                         My life is a mess and I KNOW IT!

                                          Touch of love!

                            What is love? Find some1 who's as talkative as u are! Who can sit next to u in class.. u exchange numbers... share some sweets some dirty SMSs, late night    shy talks, unnecessary giggling, endless flirting and..... BANG BANG your in LOVE!! (now this does not happen when your talking to a friend late in night)

After a month or sometimes a week or so u decide to take your RELATIONSHIP to next level. KISS. Which to me, is unnecessary flabbering of tongues...

                               Love can turn your life upside down. I met him during break..our eyes meet for a brief moment ( darn it always starts with eyes!!) felt like million little star had illuminated in my heart... He was handsome.. umm kinda sexy ;) with penetrating eyes, deep dimples that came and went with every change in his expression.. what do u expect me to refer to him as!! I simple words he was way out of my league. I never knew y I generally fall for guys out-of-my-league.And even, I never knew what exactly me league was!! But last but not the least and definitely not the least – we wouldn't be involved!! i dint know y i fell for bad boys (i guess because a very useless friend of mine had told me no guy is good and the one who is good is GAY)

              What do u need to make a girl fall for u:

•            good looks and few conman friends
•             be cute!! Now that's really easy. Girls even find dogs cute.. and (they say not i) ki all males are dogs sooo.. I just found a logic!!
•             Listen! A girl would always have some thing or the other to crib about!!
•            Give gifts and surprises and sometimes dance with her.. be as romantic as possible!
•             tell them beautiful things about their eyes (as i said it starts form there)

                 What  do u need to make a boy fall for u:

•              good looks.
•             Size does matter – huge booms!
•             Well a cute butt can attract enough attention
•            Short skirts
•            And if ur guy is not that dumb then u need to be a bit smart!

love in air

            For me... my priorities had changed. The way I looked at thing changed.. black eyeshadow was replace with much cheerful colors. Thrillers and murder mysteries where replace (not completely) by love stories.. make up which I never used(saying that I dint need any) was now used. Kohl, gloss, eyeliners, nail polishes.. everything came up. I felt beautiful sarcasms in my tone even has some sly smiles, blushing,and lots of fluttering of eyelashes and all the other rotten but amusing things that u can think about!

                                        HUG of disaster!

     Love is an illusion. A dream. That we want to be real. But somewhere it's the break that we need for reality! U tend to get pissed by your boring life!

                    What  happens when a relationship doesn't work out?

The boy was a bastard or the girl was a slut

                 Ummm...what else happens is THE Pain which clot up in ur heart constantly reminding you of your hurt, your neediness, your helplessness – trust me nothing in the world sucks as much as this feeling!!

Everyone had one dialogue to tell, with which I was quite evidently sick off, "it will be fine" HOLY SHIT WHEN ? was one question that has no answer...

                 The roads on which we had walked where lonely and life less, I longed for his attention. My eyes screamed out for love whenever I saw him. I felt as though I was holding sand was just slip off my hands. I could do nothing NOTHING at all just watch it feel is Go Away! As if I tried to clutch it tighter the faster it when off..

                  And I missed, missed getting goofy with him, missed the naughty winks, the stupid arguments which made us laugh in the end, I missed to look up at him when I was happy, missed to look up at him with tears in my eyes (I never cried in front of any1 though), I missed boring him with the crises of ma life, power hugs!

                     Things were bad in knew if frankly I dint want them to get back to normal I wanted them to go worst so that I get rid of his memories. It was my fault too.. I was  too used to his presence and even his absence!

                                                KISSING post-disaster situations!

                    After mourning for days and nights together. i feel good writing things out! Like atypical bollywood heroine here I sit after a cold shower, hair tied, fat grimspecs on my nose.

                Ummm..what are the advantages of being single for girls :

•             You don't have to explain the length of your skirt or dress that u wore in your friends party!
•             You no longer have to take-it-on those male egos and rest of the issues encircling it!
•             You need not worry about "am I boring him?"
•           You can flirt with other guys without feeling guilty!
•            You need not recharge your mob every now and then!! And need not fear his X gfs try to hit on him!!

                Boys who have just broke up:

•               you don't have to explain to any1 y do you find shakira hot!!
•             Weekends means sleeping!
•             You can watch a porn to relax your hornyness!
•             You don't have to wait or give presents or arrange for surprises to get 'one kiss' (that to if not lucky then on cheek!)
•             You don't have to keep on telling 'miss you baby' "love you dear' when u just don't mean it.

                  Its like a good riddance from all the nagging  n bugging!

                    With this I end up.. I promise myself never to fall in love ever again. Ohk not forever wala ever, just a long-short term wala ever. But I do allow myself crushes ;) cant get that tough .

   And      

   come on we're too young to get into LOVE now and face the other DISASTERS!!...
                                   
                              (author's note)
I've been quite an invisible person and big time rebel all my life and quite a lucky ass to have WILD IMAGINATION -  it kinda runs in family...
thanks mom! thanks dad! for those FEW similar hormones or genes or whatever we share :)
stories take u 2 another world where there is happy ending and you can be sure of getting the cutest looking guy as your BF :P
taking into consideration my age "17" its so obvious for me to have 'crusheS' 
love just sucks at times! at least it definitely sucks when you know it wont be happening for real! ever!
i have got TWO incurable problems

• of always thinking of myself as - ugly.. (well thats not self pitying at all! may be accept of reality or something...)
• of always getting attracted towards handsome guys

yea u got that right!!

i got lots of love rules that are meant to be followed when your completely head over heals for some stupid high school freak!! those rules are completely foolish! NEVER FOLLOW THEM!

anyways one thing is for sure.. love happens when it has to!
you can never force it on someone 
or upon yourself just wait for the one who will be yours forever! :)