GROW UP!

hi,
i am Raveena Chandan. I live on fiction - stories! And want to be a writer. I have written a short story. I hope who ever reads it likes it. Feel free to comment, though the feedback is negative or positive!

                                   (author's note)

yes! i'm confused,
i've no clue..
OF WHAT i should or shoudnt..
OF WHAT i must or musnt..
OF WHAT i want...
OF WHAT i need...
yes i'm confused.


but one day i'll make it big, just the way u want.
but one day i'll live your dream, just the way u want.
but one day i'd grow up, just the way u want.


kill my wishes to take up the burden of ur losses and ego...
JUST THE WAY U WANT..


"future" this word really exites me! i wonder... plan... think... dream.. fantasize..about my future A LOT !
- according to my dad.. "castle in air"
pheww.. parents !!!
well, its not a big deal; being a teenage... to eventually piss your parents off!!


this story is dedicated to everybody who :

• have extra strict and rigid parents!
• ever had friends to kill for!
• who loves vodka!
• who hates law!
• who had BF/GF!

                                                                       

                                                                           GROW UP!                                                       
                                                                  

                            They say – passions and ambitions can drive a man crazy… what the hell! Make a sexy girl sit next to him – he’ll go crazy on his own!! Anyways on a serious note, is it necessary for every one to have some or the other kind of passion or some or the other kind of ambition? I don’t have any!!

                            I was always asked by my dad to plan and decide, as I sucked at both planning and deciding I was asked to grow up!! I was eventually sick of this word... Topic like responsibilities, duties fucked my relationship with every1 in my family!! And hence I was thrown into a hostel (the only right decision my dad ever took for me)!

         Law school:

                            I didn’t have any ambitions as yet! And my future planning was completed unrealistic (I did it purposely, to annoy my dad)! So my dad decided on my behalf (as usual) that I will be a LAWYER!

ME- Aarit :)

                   People find me cute - everybody finds stupid girl - cute! I hardly cared though. ya but some1 once told me I was very smart and witty ;) though a bit lost, a bit irritating, a bit dominating, a bit annoying, a bit bitchy...... :P

                  anyways this is not just my story let me introduce u to my friends: The slut - who's gorgeous , The pig - who is lost, The bitch - who's ambitious and The dog - who's not at all faithful!

WE MEETING!

                  After the first day of college, it torrent rained. The corridor was jammed with people cribbing and cursing RAIN (how can any1 do that?)

•  I love rains. So did THEY :)
•  The rain cemented our bond :) and fever (the next day) cemented our friendship :D
• We were somewhere lonely and desperate to talk and share and witness.. the FUN & FRIENDSHIP
• And the most important thing - WE HATED LAW!!

SHANTINI - The Slut!

When I met her, I realized something abut FEMALES- no girl can ever not be jealous of other girl who hotter and sexier than her! Shantini was a bit weird if u ask me... she had-

• cute butt
• reasonably big booms
• wealth
• AIM - renovate me and Kkavya

She had this huge fuss abut her nick names!! Pheww… the girl had loads of attitude... I must say one thing she worked hard to maintain her assets and even our assets (me and Kkavya) though snappy and utterly rude, I can say she was really good at heart. But a fucker had once hurt her in a fucking relationship and after that she lost her faith- In love, in life, in dreams!

 CONFESSION: I thought her to be very sluttish in start. She made me a girl... :)

MATAB - The pig

When I met him, I realized something about LOST SOULS- he could never decide on anything (just like me!) but he was the sweetest person I ever met in my life. He was-

• Incredibly helpful (which made me suspicious in start..)
• Copycat (he copied others... so did I we were good at it!)
• Porn freak!
• devdas (he had hots for Shantini!)

He was from a joint family where everyone thought him to be fool. Thus he became a fool, to get some attention! I have noticed this thing - we become, what others want us to be! Their opinions - appreciations & critics make US. A dancer won’t be a dancer if people don’t like his dance same goes with writer, painter, actor and an official FOOL!

CONFESSION: I though of him as gay and a complete pig in start :P

KKAVYA -The Bitch

When I met her, I realized I am not at all dominating. She acted bitchy all the time! She'd four part-time jobs!! She wanted to do law to know every rule of the game... that’s what she told me! I dint understand what it meant though. The only four thing that made her life-

• she is a fighter
• her ambitions - The Wall Street
• practical
• Her love - towards us :)

She had been working and earning since childhood. Poor family-drunk father-motherless childhood made her tough... As per Shantini she was a bigger fashion disaster than me :D

CONFESSION:  I thought of her as very bitchy (more than me) in start. I wanted to be like her!

TANMAY- The Dog

When I met him, I realized there is no limit to rebel! Again for a rich family... he hated his dad - god knows y! It was his punishment to do Law and after that he was free! To go anywhere... to do anything...!

He was hot!

•  taunt muscles and tan skin; complete rough and tough looks
• his jeans were never on his waist (good for me ;) )
• a prime time hacker and a virgin taker
• he always acted like all hard-and-tough-guy, he thought it made him look sexy (which it did) and when drunk he became extremely stupid (which made him really cuddlesome)

I had lots of first times with him... like first kiss, first smoke, first drink!!... He was a bad guy, kinda bad for good types...

CONFESSION: I thought he could never be trusted.. things changed. I was completely attracted to him...

GROWING UP…

As drinkers and smokers:

The very first week of college we had beer party! Only five of us invited. Beer always came from Tanmay’s house- he stole! Budweiser, corona extra, Heineken, Guinness and miller lite! Other than that vodka + coke, vodka + thumbs up, vodka + sprite (my fav) and last but definitely not the least weed! (all the payment by tanmay - he had hacked his dad's debit card)

As roommates:

I, Shams and Kkavya managed to get one room in hostel (three people in a room.) eventually in five years of LAW Mantab and Tanmay moved in! we lived together! Parted together!

As students:

The only people worried about studies were – Kkavya and Mantab. As for me I hardly cared about anything!! The other two were rich spoiled brats! Mantab toped in 1st semester and was called “traitor” eventually after lots of dramas it was normal again! With time Law was interesting to every1 of us…

As  18+

Kkavya used to work and earn. Hence she was not able to give us enough time -  as expected we got irritated – DRAMA – in the end we got a challenge: to work with her… in start it was just fun but with time things were more serious…

• 1st year we worked in Mc D’ as waiters!
• 2nd year in a call center!
• By the end of 3rd year of law we all had laptops (brought by our earned money!) and rest we stared data entry!

Sharing of first times:

Five years is a long time! If u live with a person for this long u tend to know all its secrets. We knew everything thing about each other! Or lets just say some1 knew everything about something of some1 :P

• Tanmay had lost his virginity to his horny aunty and after that had got calls form many more aunties :P (that’s y he was called a virgin taker.)
• Mantab had loads of intimate moments with girls (the girl-‘S’ made all of us complete shock!)
• Shantini, as expected with that fucker!
• As for Kkavya, we all knew there was something going on between her and Tanmay cousin – mohit! (Which brings me to him!)

As 20+

Mohit was the coolest cousin Tanmay had, he once told me after he was drunk, “Arts, mohit I can say is the only one I’m left with after mom died… Mohit’s kinda Kkavya’s types” with a wink! Mohit broung Tanmay a BMW on his 20 th birthday!!

We roamed a lot that year – Goa was most commonly visited by all of us (as we got to drink a lot there)

Girl talks:

Shantini had made us do dieting, yoga and gym (she was a fitness freak!) she was the one in charged about our (mine and Kkavya's) wardrobe! She had this real huge fuss about unmentionables! She brought amante’s and jockey’s more costly than her clothes! Gloss and deo is a must! Gosh she had many rules!!

Boys talks:

God these guys were porn freaks!! Mantab and Tanmay had stupid and silliest wall papers and themes in mobiles and lappies! And there was never a time that they didn’t comment on a girl who had huge booms or no booms! And walked across us! Ewww boys suck at times!

                                               My first date!

            Tanmay finally got some guts! He asked me OUT! But one day before the farewell! What a FOOL! He called me in the middle of the night!! I was freaking happy that night… I remember standing in front of mirror trying hard to make a Angelina Jolie pout and doing whooo hooo dance on my bed after ending the call!!

             That was the best night of my life!! We He asked me y I liked him, “ I can tell u anything I want to, I can tell u I want to be a pirate, I can tell u ur an ass! Ur a dog! U’ll laugh at everything! Umm.. I can also tell u I’d a desire to see u shirt less!” to which I got his real sexy, too sexy half smile!

             I got my first kiss that time! He was awesome with his lips :P

                                                   FAREWELL

        “TIME” is unstoppable! Has no barriers, it was time to separate ways with friends who had become the most important part of my life!

             Shantini was completely excited and had arranged everything for me and Kkavya – bless her!

                     It just struck to me that we wont we together now, like wat we used to be – it made me sick to stomache!!

The night was like one dreams – magnificent!!

Kkavya, Shantini, Mantab and I managed to get placed in the same firm. While Tanmay decided to go to USA with mohit!

                                            Lonesome tonight

A useless friend of mine once told me never we alone when sad! As he never follow that advice even I didn’t! I avoided every party, any night outs!

“I wanted to weep, don’t know for whom;
I wanted to be heard, don’t know by whom;
I wanted to dream, don’t know coz of whom;
I wanted to live, don’t know with whom…”

Tanmay was smartest fellow… but I was confused about were we meant to be together? If yes y is he going (that generally doesn’t happened in love stories rite? At least that’s wat they show in movies!)

But love is not just about being loved back!! Is about the sacrifice which we make for our loved one, for their better meant, for their smile!

But he promised he will be back soon… I felt better when he called me the first after reaching America!

And he did come back J

He wanted to visit his mom’s grave there. And gave half of his inherited wealth to orphanage to which his mom belonged!

As I write this story out… I just realized we did GROW UP!

In a different way!

For all those who thought of us as good-for-nothing had to SHUT UP!

Mantab left his family and made the 1st partner to the firm

Kkavya made her way to The Wall Street

Shantini is a famous divorce lawyer (always on females side)

Tanmay and I are still going onn :D